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I.

I struggle because God told me that he doesn't like slackers,
and it is almost winter, and I have to believe in something.
His desk is so tall, I like to sit under it and stare up at where
the edge of the desk meets the ceiling and his hand tapping.
I don't like the cold, but God says that it builds character,
so I trek through it to get to something I once loved and it only
leaves me feeling small.

II.

I was never a child, I told the interviewer when he climbed on
top of me. I was never born, I just appeared.
He wasn't listening anymore, but I kept telling him.
God sank into my skin when I was sleeping one night,
in a church somewhere east of here, and
He speaks to me now.
"God doesn't exist," huffed the Interviewer Man.

III.

There was this man who said that if you spoke to God,
then you were praying. Lots of people pray in snow
And silence, but if they're silent then how does he hear them?
This man also said that if God spoke to you,
then you have schizophrenia.
I don't know what that is.
I asked God and he said that Angels get their names from
God's enemies so he can learn to love them again.
I thought that was lovely, but it didn't answer my question.

IV.

The snow is finally melting, and I can go outside again.
I saw a man standing outside my door who looked like
a younger version of Abraham, so I trusted him.
"Is your mom in?" He asked.
Jesus and I are the same height, and we argue over
the same chair at dinner. We take turns.
What's a mom, I ask the man, and I close the door on him
because God told me that sanity is a made up word,
and so is "mom."

V.

By Spring everything will be different, God said.
The hush of midday sank in my lungs and I gulped,
suddenly aware of the time that had passed.
He told me that science is the opposite of the ocean
and the sky is not the only thing that lasts forever.
Time swings on a tire swing in my front yard,
and I run to join it, but God tells me that it's Spring.
The van's coming, the Abraham man is back,
I keep listening, even after he drags me away.
God goes quiet for the first time in years.
I now know what silence is as I lie restrained to a
hospital bed.
It's white.
Like Heaven.

VI.

Today, they are letting me leave.
I think God will forgive me for not listening to him anymore.
I think he understands.
So, this is something new I've never done. I've seen it around but yeah. It's more like a story poem thing. I don't know, I just liked it.
I'm not religious. My poem is about a person's relationship with God, but it is a story, not a reflection of myself.
Thanks :)
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glossolalias Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013
intimate, poignant, and very profound. the language was simple but elegant. very beautiful.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013   Writer
Thank you for your support and feedback :)
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lonealphawolf Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2011
I'm impressed yet again. And it's a feat to write this if you never experienced it. A relationship with God is very very close and I think you kind of nailed it!
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2011   Writer
thank you so much! i really appreciate it :) :)
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lonealphawolf Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2011
You're very welcome!
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dolorem-ipsum Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2011   Writer
This is lovely. I'm not sure what to say about it beyond that, but I like it. It feels very intimate. Like the narrator really understands God on a personal level.
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thetaoofchaos Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2011   Writer
I know you meant literally (in your comments) that this wasn't about you, but I can't imagine how a piece as intimate and thoughtful as this doesn't come from within a certain figurative truth. Marvelous piece.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2011   Writer
:) yeah, I agree. every poem I write has its relevance and ties back to my thoughts and emotions, but I just didn't want anyone to get offended by the story and interpret it as an attack on religion.
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thetaoofchaos Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2011   Writer
sure, i understand. but if it comes from within, then at some point an artist has to be prepared to offend sensibilities, mores, and paradigms. again, i really liked it.
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RiseandBe Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, really just breath-taking. I don't even know what to say. Instant favorite and something I will read again and again.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011   Writer
thank you so much!! I really appreciate it
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RiseandBe Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
It was my pleasure, you do great work!
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Coming from a non-religious person, this is beautiful. o.o :3 I really like it. :)
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011   Writer
thank you so much (i'm not religious at all either :)
I just like writing about religion sometimes
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Lol. You're welcome. When I said "Coming from a non-religious person", I was talking about you. :p
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011   Writer
hahaha sorry :P
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
No no, it's okay. Not your fault. :p
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princesscharming101 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2011
This is a very profound interpretation of the interaction between the human spirit and what they percieve as divinity. I greatly enjoyed it! :iconloveloveplz:
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2011   Writer
thank you so much! :D
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princesscharming101 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2011
You're welcome!
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princesscharming101 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2011
It was also clever to havet he reader realize the speaker's insanity slowly, as the poem develops, much in the same way I would imagine the speaker themself came to a similar conclusion.
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cannakyle Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha, I loved it, great humor :)
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007Balel Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010  Student Writer
This is really beautiful...
I love how the man goes into his mental illness and ends up in a mental hospital.
To me God in this poem could also symbolize the illness that this man was suffering from.
Also the last stanza is my favourite part... it shows disappointment but also a final cure and a ray of light :)
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010   Writer
:aww: thanks for your comments!
I love your interpretation of the speaker's illness :)
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007Balel Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2010  Student Writer
I am glad you liked the comment :)
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DefinitiveContent Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010
I liked this, if this is something out of the norm for you, as the artist comment suggests, you should do more of it. I've done a few of what you might call prose poems too. I always thought the best short story writers sounded poetic too in their way - with little space and lots of images confronting the reader you get many of the same effects.

I decided to check this one first because you chose to showcase it. but I'll still look around a bit more today I think.
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MagicalJoey Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010   Writer
I love this story. How people can interfere with a person's relationship with God. I like how the speaker was happy but ended up in (what I assume is) a mental institution.

A great story and superbly written.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010   Writer
:hug: thanks :)
yeah, the speaker ends up in a mental hospital in the end.
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ToSeeIfIStillFeel Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
interesting. I'm not really into free&blank much but I like this ^-^
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010   Writer
thanks, i appreciate the comment :)
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ToSeeIfIStillFeel Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem^^
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magicalmystic Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2010
This. Is. Amazing.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2010   Writer
THANKS SO MUCH! :D
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thedeviant3 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
"I asked God and he said that Angels get their names from
God's enemies so he can learn to love them again.
I thought that was lovely, but it didn't answer my question."

For some reason i liked this part..this was really interesting to read.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010   Writer
thanks. this piece is the most random poem I've ever written. but i liked how it turned out....
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thedeviant3 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
You're welcome.
i've been trying to write lately but nothing has turned out like this.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010   Writer
aw thanks :)
I've been angsty lately and that usually sparks my creativity.
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thedeviant3 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
i think i may actually start cause i enjoy reading others works and i wonder if i can have any readers hooked on my stuff like the stuff i have read.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010   Writer
go for it.
its hard thou to get recognized on here for writing. ppl like pics more. :(
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thedeviant3 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
yeah but it's something i'm getting into, i'm sure there are others like me. i do enjoy doing the whole pics thing still.
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Venaeli Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2010
Very interesting, I'm glad that you submitted it. It sounds like it is coming from somebody much more world-wise and weary than you should be, at your age. Not to limit you or anything - it's just my impression.
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allofmyconfusion Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2010   Writer
huh, thats interesting... i think ill try out this style more, play around with it. i think its more freeing than the poetry i have been writing
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